Time to shift focus

After my last few posts, I needed to write about something else, something more uplifting. So today, I want to focus on the warm sun that embraces my bare arms through the living room window. In the other room, Pook is making a pumpkin pie for her Dora doll and pouring lemonade (not for real, for pretend). Now, she has come to the living room, singing. It's sweetness at its best.

We did yoga this morning. We've laughed. We hugged and "OM-ed" and "Namaste-d". This afternoon is her last Kindermusik class for the season. So for us, "summer" is beginning next week.

And in June, we will go on a healing pilgrimage of sorts. Spending time with family, focusing on the laughter and love. Supporting one another, reaching out, making the most of it.

With this shift, I sense a shift in our own home. There's been a shift in my heart, as I've consciously decided that I choose to celebrate life and the people in it, and stop being so hard on me because there are so many things I want to do, yet, in reality finding the time to do these things isn't the same.

So, I've been making choices. I've been prioritizing areas of my life I wasn't aware that I could. Family's taken a front burner for the time being, while we work on the healing and making memories together. Things like gardening, painting and the fence aren't as important to me as they once were.

I'm not sure what's happening, but I'm feeling peaceful. I feel as though I've come to terms with my life choices and have made peace with myself in a way. There's something about just knowing that some things out there aren't me, and I'm not as interested in as others. And knowing that it's okay.

And then, there's that recognition that I choose to live a slower paced life then most, so even though we don't have plans with other people one weekend, doesn't mean I need to feel guilty because I'm consciously choosing to stay home that weekend. In fact, I'm more appreciative that we can step back and keep our life at a slower and simpler pace then most.

So, I've just sort of been basking in the acceptance of myself. Which, has led me to the acceptance of others. Funny how that works. :)