Lately, I've been aware of a tendency of mine to trap myself in a box, and forget that at anytime, I can just open the lid and crawl out, or, even better, open the door and walk out.
There've been two aspects of my life recently, where I've done this as of late, and finally, the other day, thanks to the darling advice of a friend who told me, "Grace, you don't have to do any of this", I was free.
She was right. We don't have to move. (This being the bigger of the two.) We can still look, but we don't have to MOVE. We can make do where we are, and in the process save money, spend wisely, and maybe even pay off the house.
Wow. What a concept. Right in line with The Compact I'd mentioned previously. Which has influenced us actually.
Last night, while hubby fought off his NyQuil-ed state long enough for our nightly chats (which haven't been happening due to late bedtimes and NyQuil-ed induced sleeps), we were discussing the "break" that we were taking regarding two big decisions in our lives. One being moving...
Though we've decided to still look at houses, I must admit, that part of me just wants to let it go completely, and focus on paying off the house we now live in and save up money.
As I drifted off to sleep, I found myself thinking of things that I'd want to do with the current house: I planned where I could plant a raised veggie garden, but then it might be best to fence in the backyard with all the cats round here (and deer), which would decrease the light; add steps to the back deck; get a tool shed to hold the mower, lawn, gardening and snow stuff; clear out the dead bush and shrubs in the back - maybe a small tool shed could go there; go through our stuff to see what we really need, and what we can give away or get rid of to create more space... My mind was active, very active.
But it felt good to think of these things, because for the last 6 months, I'd been thinking along the lines of - can't do that until we move, better not get that, until we move, that's on hold... until we move. I'd gotten stuck in stagnation.
I did mention how good I can be at creating little boxes in which to shut myself, didn't I?
So now, I'm feeling much better and lighter. Hubby and I still have things to talk about and discuss, but I've freed myself to be more present now. I don't know where things are going, or what will happen, which is good, as I fretted over things that hadn't happened and put things on hold until they did.
Thank goodness for friends who can let you know, that you just don't have to!
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Early morning conversation
Pook, who is asleep: Mommy, I get a wish for an elephant.
Me: Really?
Pook: Yes, I get ONE wish. The elephant is walking.
Me: Okay.
Then, she rolls back over to sleep.
A little later on:
Pook: Mommy, Daddy's not here.
Rolls back to sleep.
Ah, the bliss of an early morning cuddle bug.
Me: Really?
Pook: Yes, I get ONE wish. The elephant is walking.
Me: Okay.
Then, she rolls back over to sleep.
A little later on:
Pook: Mommy, Daddy's not here.
Rolls back to sleep.
Ah, the bliss of an early morning cuddle bug.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Compact Challenge
Recently I've stumbled upon this blog: Walk Slowly, Live Wildy. It's been very inspirational on many levels. Aside from her lovely pics, she's also created a Compact Pledge, and has been journaling about it and how they sold their home, moved to a 1-bedroom apartment, and have been living more consciously to pay off their debt. The Compact has on some level been resonating with me. There's even a blog here entirely about it, with contact information to groups you can join.
It reminded me a lot of the book written by Judith Levine Not Buying It My Year Without Shopping, which, I've been very curious to read, but haven't yet. (It's on my list of books to get at the library, when I actually get to the library. Don't ask.)
Now, I know that if I decided to Compact, that I could. I obviously haven't, but I've been playing around with the entire idea. Hey, I also occasionally check in and read The Simple Living NetWork Newsletter. It's also gotten me thinking about several things.
One of the things on my mind has been whether or not we should stay in the house we are in now, or keep trying to move. Right now, we've got a mortgage less then most apartments around here. Living here, we are able to save more money then we've ever had, and we've paid off my school loans.
Our reasons for moving are mostly that we would like more land for Pook to play about on, neighbors that are a bit further away, and a bigger home so that we can expand on our family. But are these valid reasons? If we really wanted too, we could easily add another room and bathroom in the basement. Thus solving the more room issue.
As for the acreage, there's a park right down the road that I discovered. The Post Office can be walked to as well. And, we are blessed with friends who live on farms and acreage. I would still love for Pook to be able to be free to run around on her own land, but we can make do if need be.
Do we really need all the things we've been buying? Come Christmas time, we tend to go a wee bit crazy in that we buy a lot of things. And we tend to go overboard with gifts. This year, I've done better on the gift thing. I think I mentioned www.heifer.org before and the baking. I'm finding much more satisfaction in homemade gifts.
I've also noticed, that I've a unique knack for validating things I want. From books, to hand towels, if I want it, I can find a reason. So, I've decided to make a list of what else I would want for the house, and decide - do I really need it? Can I do without it? Why do I want it in the first place?
And then too, I have come to realize how blessed we are to live in a society and place where you can get virtually anything you want via internet and the like. And then I wonder - but are we responsible with our consumerism? Do we need to be?
In any case, I'm still pondering on this. It's clearly touched something in me. How about you?
It reminded me a lot of the book written by Judith Levine Not Buying It My Year Without Shopping, which, I've been very curious to read, but haven't yet. (It's on my list of books to get at the library, when I actually get to the library. Don't ask.)
Now, I know that if I decided to Compact, that I could. I obviously haven't, but I've been playing around with the entire idea. Hey, I also occasionally check in and read The Simple Living NetWork Newsletter. It's also gotten me thinking about several things.
One of the things on my mind has been whether or not we should stay in the house we are in now, or keep trying to move. Right now, we've got a mortgage less then most apartments around here. Living here, we are able to save more money then we've ever had, and we've paid off my school loans.
Our reasons for moving are mostly that we would like more land for Pook to play about on, neighbors that are a bit further away, and a bigger home so that we can expand on our family. But are these valid reasons? If we really wanted too, we could easily add another room and bathroom in the basement. Thus solving the more room issue.
As for the acreage, there's a park right down the road that I discovered. The Post Office can be walked to as well. And, we are blessed with friends who live on farms and acreage. I would still love for Pook to be able to be free to run around on her own land, but we can make do if need be.
Do we really need all the things we've been buying? Come Christmas time, we tend to go a wee bit crazy in that we buy a lot of things. And we tend to go overboard with gifts. This year, I've done better on the gift thing. I think I mentioned www.heifer.org before and the baking. I'm finding much more satisfaction in homemade gifts.
I've also noticed, that I've a unique knack for validating things I want. From books, to hand towels, if I want it, I can find a reason. So, I've decided to make a list of what else I would want for the house, and decide - do I really need it? Can I do without it? Why do I want it in the first place?
And then too, I have come to realize how blessed we are to live in a society and place where you can get virtually anything you want via internet and the like. And then I wonder - but are we responsible with our consumerism? Do we need to be?
In any case, I'm still pondering on this. It's clearly touched something in me. How about you?
Children's bliss
Nothing beats the good morning wishes and smile from a just-waking Pook, who then proceeds to snuggle up in your lap, and hug and kiss you profusely.
I adore my child.
She truly has the ability to lighten up my day and my heart.
This weekend, we broke out the Christmas decorations and Christmas movies. She's like a kid in the candy store between the new movies and the Christmas tree, oh, and the colored lights in the bedroom. As we've watched those movies, I noticed that most of them have an ongoing theme - of children growing up.
I can assure you, that this week especially, those hugs and kisses are treasured above and beyond. In fact, I've made it a point to make each of these moments sacred in some way in my heart.
I adore my child.
She truly has the ability to lighten up my day and my heart.
This weekend, we broke out the Christmas decorations and Christmas movies. She's like a kid in the candy store between the new movies and the Christmas tree, oh, and the colored lights in the bedroom. As we've watched those movies, I noticed that most of them have an ongoing theme - of children growing up.
I can assure you, that this week especially, those hugs and kisses are treasured above and beyond. In fact, I've made it a point to make each of these moments sacred in some way in my heart.
Monday, November 27, 2006
Life
I've been inundated with lots of thoughts lately. Dealing with family, life, and spirituality.
And then, I found our my grandmother was in the hospital this past weekend. Her altziemer's worsening, vocalizing she wanted to go, those who are holding on to her, being aware of my mother trying to deal with everything...
So much more I can say, but I need to reast my brain at the moment.
Ah... life.
And then, I found our my grandmother was in the hospital this past weekend. Her altziemer's worsening, vocalizing she wanted to go, those who are holding on to her, being aware of my mother trying to deal with everything...
So much more I can say, but I need to reast my brain at the moment.
Ah... life.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
And another thing...
I've recently noticed an increase in readers in my blog. Would y'all mind introducing yourselves, perhaps saying hello if you don't mind? :)
And... last thing tonight, really...
Hubby got Pook a PS2 game. And she's hooked. :) Too funny.
And... last thing tonight, really...
Hubby got Pook a PS2 game. And she's hooked. :) Too funny.
Quietly giving thanks...
This year, we're not traveling for the holiday. Hubby's working on Friday, and needs to make up time, so here we are. Considering I'm all fuzzy-headed with congestion drip-drip-dripping down my throat - this is a good thing. So, it's not really much of a holiday, more of just a day to recouperate from recent events.
So, imagine me saying this in my raspy-throaty voice very quietly:
Happy Thanksgiving!
In other news, this week has provided me with the much needed quiet to focus on the homeschooling and scheduling front. Pook and I have been doing well with our own Circle time, and lots of reading. Thankfully, with a shift of priorities and scheduling, work hasn't been stressing me out as much. This, is a very, very good thing, as I've a tendency to get a bit anal about things.
Wishing you all a wonderous day of thanks, filled with lots of turkey (of which we'll not be partaking of, as we've chosen to just make it a day, and were too lazy to defrost the dang thing!) .
So, imagine me saying this in my raspy-throaty voice very quietly:
Happy Thanksgiving!
In other news, this week has provided me with the much needed quiet to focus on the homeschooling and scheduling front. Pook and I have been doing well with our own Circle time, and lots of reading. Thankfully, with a shift of priorities and scheduling, work hasn't been stressing me out as much. This, is a very, very good thing, as I've a tendency to get a bit anal about things.
Wishing you all a wonderous day of thanks, filled with lots of turkey (of which we'll not be partaking of, as we've chosen to just make it a day, and were too lazy to defrost the dang thing!) .
100 blessings in my life
(in no particular order of importance)
1. I'm thankful for an absolutley amazing and wonderful hubby, to whom I'm passionately in love with.
2. I'm thankful for an amazing and blessed daughter, who delights me everyday with her smile.
3. I'm thankful for our current house, that's just right for where we are now.
4. I'm thankful for my sweet family.
5. I'm thankful for supportive and loving friends, who can speak their truth with me, and I them.
6. I'm thankful for the smile that greets me each morning, followed by, "Good morning, Mommy!"
7. I'm thankful for the big hugs, and the little ones.
8. I'm thankful for nose kisses.
9. I'm thankful for autumn leaves of red and gold.
10. I'm thankful for dancing with the wind, upon the grass, with my arms in the air.
11. I'm thankful for sweet kisses.
12. I'm thankful for neck kisses.
13. I'm thankful for the park that's down the street.
14. I'm thankful for Pook's trike.
15. I'm thankful for walks outdoor.
16. I'm thankful for soft gloves and scarves in winter.
17. I'm thankful for song birds.
18. I'm thankful for my brother, and how he shows his love for his neice.
19. I'm thankful for the situation in VT.
20. I'm thankful for my sweet, darling sister-in-love.
21. I'm thankful for my mom, and for being able to view her from a different persepctive.
22. I'm thankful for my treasure nephew.
23. I'm thankful for my job, and being able to work from home.
24. I'm thankful for homeschooling.
25. I'm thankful for Charlotte Mason.
26. I'm thankful for having a buddy who I can talk homeschooling with, and shop with too!
27. I'm thankful for Kindermusik.
28. I'm thankful I live where I do.
29. I'm thankful for the varies choice available to me. Especially in regards to food.
30. I'm thankful for blogs.
31. I'm thankful for bloggers who blog about their lives, homeschooling, and other inspiring things.
32. I'm thankful for water colors.
33. I'm thankful for easils.
34. I'm thankful for hot chocolate.
35. I'm thankful for cozy comforters.
36. I'm thankful for our serene and peaceful bedroom.
37. I'm thankful we switched nightstands, as the bedroom now looks more spacious.
38. I'm thankful for seasons.
39. I'm thankful my Pook likes hot chocolate now too.
40. I'm thankful for quiet moments.
41. I'm thankful for my teapot.
42. I'm thankful for Earl Grey, with milk and sugar.
43. I'm thankful for the new cups and saucers I splurged on, and that go so well with my morning tea in the tea pot.
44. I'm thankful for feather pillows.
45. I'm thankful for flannel sheets.
46. I'm thankful our home is heated.
47. I'm thankful for warm showers.
48. I'm thankful we can go to the store to get food.
49. I'm thankful for all the options of food we have available to us.
50. I'm thankful for the internet, and being able to order things from anywhere.
51. I'm thankful for steamed rice.
52. I'm thankful for fresh herbs.
53. I'm thankful for Pook's laughter.
54. I'm thankful for being able to set my own schedule.
55. I'm thankful my bosses regard me so highly.
56. I'm thankful for those friends that aren't close by.
57. I'm thankful for L's farm.
58. I'm thankful for hugs.
59. I'm thankful for the Canadian luvs.
60. I'm thankful for the MD pals.
61. I'm thankful for a quiet holiday.
62. I'm thankful for each day my hubby has off.
63. I'm thankful I can drive.
64. I'm thankful for warm sweaters.
65. I'm so thankful for boot cut jeans!
66. I'm thankful for acupuncture.
67. I'm thankful for my PT's.
68. I'm thankful for kind neighbors.
69. I'm thankful for love.
70. I'm thankful for varying perspectives.
71. I'm thankful for nighttime snuggles.
72. I'm thankful, and my heart swells, each time Pook tells me she loves me.
73. I'm thankful for each time my hubby kisses me tenderly.
74. I'm thankful for each time my hubby kisses my hand.
75. I'm thankful each time hubby empties the dishwasher, takes out the trash, snuggles in bed or while watching a movie, rubs my feet, declutters his things on his own... and all the little things I forget to thank him for.
76. I'm thankful for cousins, aunts, and uncles.
77. I'm thankful for grandmas.
78. I'm thankful for the moments I've spent with my grandpas when they were alive.
79. I'm thankful for all moments with my parents and grandparents.
80. I'm thankful for my in-laws.
81. I'm thankful for a clear night sky.
82. I'm thankful for the wind's song.
83. I'm thankful for words and language.
84. I'm thankful for inspiration.
85. I'm thankful for devotion.
86. I'm thankful for a walk taken with my brother years ago at Soldier's delight.
87. I'm thankful for any quality time I get with my brother.
88. I'm thankful each time Pook counts for me.
89. I'm thankful each time Pook sings for me.
90. I'm thankful Pook is now using the potty.
91. I'm thankful for tender moments in the arms of my loves.
92. I'm thankful for hand-written letters.
93. I'm thankful for hand-written thank you notes.
94. I'm thankful for being able to walk without pain, and bend my knee.
95. I'm thankful for homeade breads, pizzas, and pies.
96. I'm thankful for each damp snow flake, each wet rain drop, each tickle of the wind in my hair, each leave that dances in the air, each blade of grass, each tree, each gift and joy of nature.
97. I'm thankful that I have as much as I do, and that I can declutter.
98. I'm thankful for all the joys in my life.
99. I'm thankful for piles of autumn leaves to play in.
100. I'm thankful I'm alive, and content where I am.
What are you thankful for?
1. I'm thankful for an absolutley amazing and wonderful hubby, to whom I'm passionately in love with.
2. I'm thankful for an amazing and blessed daughter, who delights me everyday with her smile.
3. I'm thankful for our current house, that's just right for where we are now.
4. I'm thankful for my sweet family.
5. I'm thankful for supportive and loving friends, who can speak their truth with me, and I them.
6. I'm thankful for the smile that greets me each morning, followed by, "Good morning, Mommy!"
7. I'm thankful for the big hugs, and the little ones.
8. I'm thankful for nose kisses.
9. I'm thankful for autumn leaves of red and gold.
10. I'm thankful for dancing with the wind, upon the grass, with my arms in the air.
11. I'm thankful for sweet kisses.
12. I'm thankful for neck kisses.
13. I'm thankful for the park that's down the street.
14. I'm thankful for Pook's trike.
15. I'm thankful for walks outdoor.
16. I'm thankful for soft gloves and scarves in winter.
17. I'm thankful for song birds.
18. I'm thankful for my brother, and how he shows his love for his neice.
19. I'm thankful for the situation in VT.
20. I'm thankful for my sweet, darling sister-in-love.
21. I'm thankful for my mom, and for being able to view her from a different persepctive.
22. I'm thankful for my treasure nephew.
23. I'm thankful for my job, and being able to work from home.
24. I'm thankful for homeschooling.
25. I'm thankful for Charlotte Mason.
26. I'm thankful for having a buddy who I can talk homeschooling with, and shop with too!
27. I'm thankful for Kindermusik.
28. I'm thankful I live where I do.
29. I'm thankful for the varies choice available to me. Especially in regards to food.
30. I'm thankful for blogs.
31. I'm thankful for bloggers who blog about their lives, homeschooling, and other inspiring things.
32. I'm thankful for water colors.
33. I'm thankful for easils.
34. I'm thankful for hot chocolate.
35. I'm thankful for cozy comforters.
36. I'm thankful for our serene and peaceful bedroom.
37. I'm thankful we switched nightstands, as the bedroom now looks more spacious.
38. I'm thankful for seasons.
39. I'm thankful my Pook likes hot chocolate now too.
40. I'm thankful for quiet moments.
41. I'm thankful for my teapot.
42. I'm thankful for Earl Grey, with milk and sugar.
43. I'm thankful for the new cups and saucers I splurged on, and that go so well with my morning tea in the tea pot.
44. I'm thankful for feather pillows.
45. I'm thankful for flannel sheets.
46. I'm thankful our home is heated.
47. I'm thankful for warm showers.
48. I'm thankful we can go to the store to get food.
49. I'm thankful for all the options of food we have available to us.
50. I'm thankful for the internet, and being able to order things from anywhere.
51. I'm thankful for steamed rice.
52. I'm thankful for fresh herbs.
53. I'm thankful for Pook's laughter.
54. I'm thankful for being able to set my own schedule.
55. I'm thankful my bosses regard me so highly.
56. I'm thankful for those friends that aren't close by.
57. I'm thankful for L's farm.
58. I'm thankful for hugs.
59. I'm thankful for the Canadian luvs.
60. I'm thankful for the MD pals.
61. I'm thankful for a quiet holiday.
62. I'm thankful for each day my hubby has off.
63. I'm thankful I can drive.
64. I'm thankful for warm sweaters.
65. I'm so thankful for boot cut jeans!
66. I'm thankful for acupuncture.
67. I'm thankful for my PT's.
68. I'm thankful for kind neighbors.
69. I'm thankful for love.
70. I'm thankful for varying perspectives.
71. I'm thankful for nighttime snuggles.
72. I'm thankful, and my heart swells, each time Pook tells me she loves me.
73. I'm thankful for each time my hubby kisses me tenderly.
74. I'm thankful for each time my hubby kisses my hand.
75. I'm thankful each time hubby empties the dishwasher, takes out the trash, snuggles in bed or while watching a movie, rubs my feet, declutters his things on his own... and all the little things I forget to thank him for.
76. I'm thankful for cousins, aunts, and uncles.
77. I'm thankful for grandmas.
78. I'm thankful for the moments I've spent with my grandpas when they were alive.
79. I'm thankful for all moments with my parents and grandparents.
80. I'm thankful for my in-laws.
81. I'm thankful for a clear night sky.
82. I'm thankful for the wind's song.
83. I'm thankful for words and language.
84. I'm thankful for inspiration.
85. I'm thankful for devotion.
86. I'm thankful for a walk taken with my brother years ago at Soldier's delight.
87. I'm thankful for any quality time I get with my brother.
88. I'm thankful each time Pook counts for me.
89. I'm thankful each time Pook sings for me.
90. I'm thankful Pook is now using the potty.
91. I'm thankful for tender moments in the arms of my loves.
92. I'm thankful for hand-written letters.
93. I'm thankful for hand-written thank you notes.
94. I'm thankful for being able to walk without pain, and bend my knee.
95. I'm thankful for homeade breads, pizzas, and pies.
96. I'm thankful for each damp snow flake, each wet rain drop, each tickle of the wind in my hair, each leave that dances in the air, each blade of grass, each tree, each gift and joy of nature.
97. I'm thankful that I have as much as I do, and that I can declutter.
98. I'm thankful for all the joys in my life.
99. I'm thankful for piles of autumn leaves to play in.
100. I'm thankful I'm alive, and content where I am.
What are you thankful for?
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
From a friend...
Besides the noble art of getting things done, there is a nobler art ofleaving things undone.... The wisdom of life consists in the elimination of nonessentials.
Lin Yutang
Lin Yutang
Friday, November 03, 2006
One year...
Well, what do you know? I've officially been blogging at Otter's Way for a year!
Any ideas on how to celebrate?
Okay, so technically, it's a year and a day. :)
Any ideas on how to celebrate?
Okay, so technically, it's a year and a day. :)
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Thursday Thoughts
This week, I've gotten the opportunity to dump off two loads to the Good Will, and clean up the basement. Now, Pook can ride her trike indoors when the weather gets too cold.
I've finally (after a good year or more) gotten rid of the old sewing table my mom dumped off (after I'd already sent a better one back to her because I wasn't using it). There are still a few more boxes for hubby to go through, and a box I'm holding on to until my mom and SIL come to visit, then more stuff goes out. I'm even tempted to dig into the boxes we've already packed up to move again.
Of course, in peaking at a few of the containers, I discovered one is filled with her doll house stuff, and another is filled up with gifts for her that I got on sale for her birthday, Christmas, etc. (Thankfully, I haven't started shopping for her birthday. Looks like it's covered!) And then, there are about 3 more filled with toys of hers we've packed to see if she's noticed, or toys too young for her that we are saving for the next.
I always try to go through and get rid of things around Christmas. Obviously, because we usually end up with more stuff. And, once you have kids, it seems the more you get rid of your stuff, the more people give to your child. Mind you, I still want my FIL to build Pook her kitchen set, but I'd rather wait until we move as space is already tight here, and, when homeschooling, you get to accumulate stuff for that too. Although, if we haven't moved by her birthday, I may just reconsider that, and make more room. Um... yeah... here's sending out those house vibes again.
I'm still amazed at how good it feels to just let go of material stuff. I guess since I've spent most of my life clinging to it, being able to release it and embrace the more important, nonmaterial items, has made the difference.
I've finally (after a good year or more) gotten rid of the old sewing table my mom dumped off (after I'd already sent a better one back to her because I wasn't using it). There are still a few more boxes for hubby to go through, and a box I'm holding on to until my mom and SIL come to visit, then more stuff goes out. I'm even tempted to dig into the boxes we've already packed up to move again.
Of course, in peaking at a few of the containers, I discovered one is filled with her doll house stuff, and another is filled up with gifts for her that I got on sale for her birthday, Christmas, etc. (Thankfully, I haven't started shopping for her birthday. Looks like it's covered!) And then, there are about 3 more filled with toys of hers we've packed to see if she's noticed, or toys too young for her that we are saving for the next.
I always try to go through and get rid of things around Christmas. Obviously, because we usually end up with more stuff. And, once you have kids, it seems the more you get rid of your stuff, the more people give to your child. Mind you, I still want my FIL to build Pook her kitchen set, but I'd rather wait until we move as space is already tight here, and, when homeschooling, you get to accumulate stuff for that too. Although, if we haven't moved by her birthday, I may just reconsider that, and make more room. Um... yeah... here's sending out those house vibes again.
I'm still amazed at how good it feels to just let go of material stuff. I guess since I've spent most of my life clinging to it, being able to release it and embrace the more important, nonmaterial items, has made the difference.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Earl Grey Tea - Hot
I giggle everytime I drink it, as I think of Captain Picard placing his order on the Enterprise. :) I like mine with milk and sugar, and I've recently found this delightful brand that's the best Earl Grey tea I've had by far. So, for those tea drinkers out there, here's the brand:
St. Dalfour Organic Earl Grey Tea
I like that each tea bag is individually packaged. Though not the best for the environment, it does keep the tea's flavor nicely.
Plus, the tea bags are really neat. No mini metal staples to interfere with the flavor.
So, if you have the chance, and tea is your thing, give it a taste.
St. Dalfour Organic Earl Grey Tea
I like that each tea bag is individually packaged. Though not the best for the environment, it does keep the tea's flavor nicely.
Plus, the tea bags are really neat. No mini metal staples to interfere with the flavor.
So, if you have the chance, and tea is your thing, give it a taste.
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