I wish...

I wish I could wave a wand, and make it clear to you, that you will find love again. That you can find love in someone who is worthy of you, who won't lie to you, who won't steal from you, push you, hit you, cheat on you, or manipulate you and your gift for opening your heart and loving because you feel you have no choice but to love, or that you can't find that love with anyone else.

I wish I could show you how strong you are, that the loneliness you feel will pass, and that sometimes, when your life has been threatened, regardless of sharing a child with that person - the best thing is to walk away. You don't have to stop loving, but some things, regardless of the hope we have cannot be fixed. And some things end in death.

You used to dream of love that was true, of a beautiful wedding and vows that were taken seriously not just by you, but another. And twice now, you've been burned. What's to say that there won't be a third? What's to say that you can't find love again, with someone who treats you as you love others?

I am not in your shoes. I have not walked your path. I do not know your heart, and I know that I see things in a much different light then you do. I stay back - it's your life, your choice, and nothing I say will influence you otherwise. But then, I don't think you are looking for advice this time. You follow your heart.

I care for you. I trust that only you know what is best for you, but it bothers me that your choices could end your life or the life of your child, although you may not see it that way.

I pray for you, because I love you and I don't want you to become one of those statistics because you thought you were doing the right thing, and ending up abused - verbally, mentally, and physically. And because praying is all I can do for you right now.

I pray, that you can find peace. That you can find love for yourself, and step away from those who claim they love you, but whose love involves abuse.

I do not want to loose you or your child to someone who doesn't love with the openess, forgiveness and freedom that you do. You are a gift, such a gift.

I do not know the answers. I do not know your path. But I do know your heart, and I can only pray it will keep you safe.