Mistakes

You know that you need to slow down, when you make a comment that's inappropriate, and you don't even realize it.

At first, discovering this, really upset me. How could I be so callous? How could I have missed that?

And, then, my thinking began to shift when I realized that I'd simply missed information, and ironically, managed to latch onto the positive information, and thus skimmed right over the negative information.

In the past, I'd have spent way too much time lamenting my mistake and getting angry with myself. And now? I'm realizing that I'm more compassionate with myself. I made a mistake. It's in writing, so I can't take it back. I did apologize when it was brought to my attention.

The whole event has cause me to do some serious thinking and recognize a few realizations.

It is time to slow down again, to listen and really, really pay attention. If I don't have the time to focus on it, then I either make the time (now or later) or I need to let it go.

For those who know me, I do a lot of juggling. We've chosen to homeschool our two kiddos. I work from home. I also feel a responsibility to keep and take care of the home. I believe in precious moments of "tummy time" and snuggling on the couch with a kid (or two) and a good book.

Sometimes, I get so caught up in my own life, I forget to take the time for others. I've been making a point to do this, as I believe it's important to care and pay attention. I've spent too much of my life stuck in my own little world, that I chose to reach out.

Now, to find the balance...