A good look

There's something about a new babe that gets you to take a good look at your life. At least, that's what I've been telling myself. This new lil one has truly been a gift, as well as a spotlight on my life and how I make my way through the days. Lately, my view has expanded into a wider view of how I've lived my life, and I'm not sure that I like what I have been seeing.

One thing that has stood out, was that I love to understand the whys and hows of things and people. I like to figure out why people do things, why I do things, etc., and what would benefit me even more would changing things as opposed to figure them out. If that makes sense.

Perhaps, it's the sleep deprivation or some other reason that's not really relevant. I'm now seeing I have a choice. Make changes, or accept things as they are. And I'm seeing that change is not something I'm particularly fond of. When it happens, there's a part of me that strives to hold on to what was before in some way, a part of me that doesn't want to let go. Although, there have been changes that I've jumped into, relishing the change they brought, hoping the change would reflect on every part.

In any case, I'm thinking I might do something radical. I don't know what exactly. I suppose I'm still figuring it out. I am aware that change would be beneficial. Now, there's finding the motivation to make it.